wish i could be on stage right now, acting my little heart out.
wish i had some text written by an amazing playwright. text that would guide me and show me the easy way in. the easy way out...
i wish i was on stage, acting with actors, learning and stealing, and living and being.
i wish i could just sit and not wish. but i think not wishing is strange. i wish that i could wish for something else.
i wish a lot.
while i'm doing everything i wish. not in an "i can't live in the moment way" but in a "this wish is a bridge of belief that will carry me into the next moment kind of way"...maybe that doesn't make sense...
i wish is a funny phrase. i wish that wishes came true as soon as you thought of them or whispered them.
it's better when you whisper them. they seem more magical that way.
wishes are prayers.
maybe that's why i like whispering them. i whisper my prayers at night and in the morning. throughout the day it's more of a mumble.
i wish, i mean i pray...
i am satisfied but of course i want more...that doesn't make sense either but it's how i feel. i think feelings are supposed to be irrelevant or i'm supposed to pretend they are. well, that's the problem with living out front...all pretense slowly melts away and then your wishes/prayers are heard by all...
some of the things i have in my life i wished for since i was a child. that means i have to keep on wishing...praying(all while being active of course).
that makes sense...
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