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It's almost time for the Season 2 premiere of  Shitty Fabulous Lives THE SERIES.  This love project is growing and we're so proud of it.  We look forward to making each season better than the last...

Tune in on April 1, 2012!!!  In the meantime click here to read about the fabulous cast and the ShittyFab Team.

 

I Miss Things

When my lunch cookie crumbled...

With simple choices lives are being altered.  

Politics, the lack of humanity and having to take a stand have been on my mind.  These are heavy topics and issues that need to be discussed.  In the middle of all this heaviness,  today,  I found myself out for a walk, and then sitting at lunch with things that seem irrelevant in comparison running through this head of mine.

At first I missed the person.  That passed. 

Today, I found myself  admitting that I miss things.  

Buttering bread, putting mayonnaise on the side because that's what he liked, the extra large everything because regular sized anything would be too small, being forced to keep my word because I said it out loud, unplanned dates, not having to wonder who my date would be, debating until I could be nothing but silent, choosing the opposite side just to be in opposition, the difference.  I miss the difference coupled with the togetherness... the experience of sharing moments.

I had no idea that you could miss experience and not miss a person.  In my mind the other person was the relationship.  

As I thought about the phone call I would have to make to my mom later this day(the one where I say something like, "Mommy my life is great, I am blessed and today I feel so ugghhh...")- I knew she would ask me to articulate, in complete sentences, what I was feeling.  

So I sat there thinking.  Complete sentences came.  I miss sharing experiences in a particularly intimate way that can only come when you are actively in uncensored relation to another human being.  I miss the ease of focusing on somebody else because it helps me not focus on myself.  I miss my run-on sentences being loved.

Lunch was over and I started walking again.  I had to yell at myself (in my head) after a few steps.  Those sentences are so wordy.  What don't you want to say?  

I miss being in a relationship.  

When I said that aloud (in my head) I almost died.  Why was I so ashamed to admit that to myself?  Why the guilt?  Why do I think I should only be focused on the happenings of the world and not the very simple desires I have?

I find myself in a weird place this Saturday afternoon.  Signing petitions, drafting plans, fixing plans, adjusting schedules, learning sides, painting pictures(in my mind), getting ready for tonight's show, and  feeling guilty because my problems aren't really problems; they aren't even issues...

When I call my mom I think she will probably laugh at me, which will make me laugh at myself ... wait, I'm already laughing...

Ismene

This photo was taken backstage just before "Ismene" enters having made the decision to die with her sister Antigone.  Sounds morbid right?  Yep, it's a tragedy but I am having a great time working with everyone at Quintessence Theatre Group in Philadelphia on this production of Anouilh's ANTIGONE.  The cast is wonderful.  We share lots of laughs and leave the drama on the stage.

A lot of people wonder what happens to Ismene after she runs off in pursuit of her sister... I wonder what production I'll be doing next... and I hope the theatre lets me purchase the dress I'm wearing in the photo...

Back On The Book

Rememebr when facebook deleted our page last week?  I was so against setting up a new one.  I was against it  because (in my mind) it was going to be a lot of work and mostly because I was annoyed.

I'm over those feelings.  It only takes a couple of clicks (especially when a dear friend sets it up for you) and there is no time like the present to start fresh.

When you have a second, visit our brand new facebook page, hit the like button and give us immediate delight!

Have a good day everyone.

P.S. - Season 2 of Shitty Fabulous Lives THE SERIES is almost done.  One more day of shooting and it will be a wrap.  Stay tuned to www.shittyfab.com for meet the cast videos, the season 2 trailer and more.  Oh did I tell you The ShittyFab Shop is open?  New fab items to be added next week... but don't wait until then go browse/shop now.  shop.shittyfab.com.

Stress Eating

I pride myself on eating clean... okay eating clean 90% of the time.

Then there are times when I decidedly use stress as an excuse to eat what I want. See this week's menu below(if you look at an item on the list and think it isn't bad - please know that in one sitting I ate the portion size that 5 grown men should eat).

THE MENU

Cheese Fries(see the pic. of the demolished take out tin... I am in Philly most of the week.  Cheese fries seem appropriate in stressful moments)

The Vegan Chilli from Food For All on Germantown Ave (Also in Philly.  I can't get enough of this stuff but all that millet can't be good for the body)

Seaweed

Pumpkin Seeds

Fruit Snacks

Broccoli in Garlic Sauce

Veggie Egg-rolls

Pirate's Booty

Sweet Potato Chips

Rice Chips

Black Bean Chips

Flax Seed Chips

Three tons of Guacamole(Also from Food For All- that place is a food paradise.  The California Dreamin' Breakfast sandwich is amazing...)

More Fruit Snacks

Ice cream

Bread

A Salad Burrito from Island Salad(on 125th Street in NYC also amazing...)

Regular Fries

There is more but because I am a little embarrassed I'm going to end the menu there.

I feel full.   When you wake up feeling full you KNOW you ate way too much the night before!!!

My body has changed in one week.

Has anyone noticed the date on this post?  It's only Thursday.  The week that I keep mentioning isn't even over.

I have been too busy to go to the gym in the last 3 weeks and I had to have assistance to zip up my costume last night.  I am literally shaking my head right now.

Now that I have blog-fessed (confessed)  I am putting the fork down... Hope I get in that costume tonight.  A Spanx can only do so much...

Will do better today.  It's back to good healthy eating, I must work out tonight and in the words of Whitley Gilbert- I will, "RELAX, RELATE, RELEASE!

I am accepting e-love and understanding... Thanks in advance.