It started with talk about psychics or psycho something or dopamine or thought or something...that documentary What The BLEEP Do We Know!? we were talking about that. Then we talked about Seed by Rahda Blank at Classical Theater of Harlem(go see it) and then we began talking about my dating life.
Yusef did a lot of laughing at me and the situations I find myself in...read the blog, clearly I have stories. I mean who else runs into an impostor and lives to blog about it? Anyway we were laughing about the latest situation: AWKWARD GUY.
I was through, about to throw in the towel. How much endearing, goofy, sincere, thoughtful behavior can one woman take when it's not coupled with decisive I'm sort of a caveman behavior? I can't take much...unless I tell Yusef about it and at the end of the conversation he leaves me with this thought:
"You are such a strong individual. What is all that strength
worth if you don't give yourself room
to change things up a bit? Do something different..."
worth if you don't give yourself room
to change things up a bit? Do something different..."
Good one.
That statement/question was the gift Professor Miller gave me before hanging up. Darn...every time I think I'm making progress I realize it's only a thought...doing something different...isn't that what all my talk of living out front is about?
YES that's exactly what it's all about. For the second time this week I hang my head in shame...slyly smirk...and chuckle lightly while tossing my hands in the air and getting back to the business of being open...
I'm not through, I won't throw in the towel...this is a process. ARRGHH!
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The things I keep.
The same Professor Miller passed this note to me in a rehearsal many moons ago.
He passed it after I expressed my desires to learn how to do a hand stand(notice the stick figure drawing) and to get into grad school...many moons ago...I can sort of do a hand stand now and I am so done with school, the institutional kind anyway...the learning continues.
The same Professor Miller passed this note to me in a rehearsal many moons ago.
He passed it after I expressed my desires to learn how to do a hand stand(notice the stick figure drawing) and to get into grad school...many moons ago...I can sort of do a hand stand now and I am so done with school, the institutional kind anyway...the learning continues.
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